grounded

it's april. wow.

it was a whirlwind week going and coming back from new orleans. i had a great time, but also the tugging on the back of my brain about homework and writing to deal with. i did accomplish a lot on airplanes, which felt great and while i generally hate to fly, i almost wished i could find a way to be forced into a 2-foot space with a little fold-out table at least once a week.

got home late that wednesday night after almost missing my connecting flight due to a last-minute deluge in nola and delayed start. then, had to open at work the following morning. that friday had my first official public reading (not counting school functions) at a bar in the mission, organized by friend/acquantaince kh. it was a lot of fun and had a good group of friends come out to support, so that felt nice and helped abate the nerves. then, that weekend was a big opener at work. i don't think i was able to decompress until last monday.

monday went to a poetry reading for class, which was a nice change of pace and outdoors, which always feels better than white walls and desks. then, the onslaught of the work week. spent the weekend working and cat-sitting for tb. it's monday again and i'm catching up on things.

i wish i didn't have to cram everything in to such a short period of time to work. i'm working on the balance in my day-to-day life, but classmates are also turning in things very last-minute these days. it's kind of like a domino effect, so person a turning in a piece on sunday for a monday class gives everyone in the class only about 24 hours to edit their work. not very considerate, but it's a new kind of mentality for everyone. much less about the individual.

on that note though, i workshopped my latest piece last monday and got good feedback and feel like i have finally found my rhythm. there has always been the zeal, but the execution has had issues. friday was the start of thesis readings for the second-years and it's a little frightening to think about being in that position a year from now. things are moving very fast. it's an awesome experience, but i don't think i will every feel like i am gelling a hundred percent. i think i am ok with that.